adam

Recently our neighbors moved out of Beth Re'im, which is the apartment complex we live in within Fuller housing. We miss them so much! They were a family of five and we had lots of good times together. Now we are the only residents on the outside of the complex. I hope someone moves in soon to join us! But, no matter who it is, it won't fill the special place in our hearts for Will, Rachel, William, Dante, and Adam.

Adam used to come over to our place and play Yahtzee. He knows how awesome it is, which makes him a very smart three year old. Sometimes we also played Rummikub or Loaded Qs... not the traditional way of course, because rules are hard to communicate to a three year old. If we didn't lock our front door, he would just walk in. If we did lock our door you could hear Adam outside with a cheerful voice "hey guys! I'm right here! open the door!"

They moved out last Friday. I really miss seeing the boys regularly and catching Rachel at the mailbox or the laundry room and talking to Will about bikes. They were the only family with kids that I really knew in our complex, and it feels kinda sad now that they are gone.

...Yet it's also nice to sit in my underwear at my computer and not be afraid that a little boy is going to walk into my living room... unless I lock myself in.

I've been thinking about loss a lot lately (because of my work and life events) and realize that it is almost always bittersweet like that.